My school year in Joutsenon Opisto is about to end.
(The school ain't no official high school nor college or whatever you name it. It's just a one year school, for everyone who has the money for it ((Schools never cost anything in Finland)). It kinda like educates you forward while trying to get into the REAL schools!)
Now that I think of it, I'm really sad... I'm going to miss school so much. All my friends, the atmosphere and even our awesome teachers. And especially my working place! During spring, I found a new corner in our classrooms. I drew and painted many many things. I've never been as creative as I was then.
Most people are waiting for summer so eagerly. I just wish it was over soon. Well, I'm happy that spring is soon over but after that awaits the long, awful hot summer and working. Urgh... the more I do these stupid summerjobs, the more I'm convinced about the fact that I really do want to draw to earn my living. It's the only thing I've always done. Creating. Arts. No matter in which form, music, acting, writing... I've always done something. That's just the way I am. If I were wise I'd choose a safe career. But then I'd just waste the very fact that I am. I only want to create. I'd probably get depressed of not having the time to create any more. It's so weird how some people just can't understand that. "Oh what an awful path you've chosen" "You're never gonna find a job!" "You're gonna end up poor, try to find a rich man" "You know, it's not gonna be easy" Oh yeah? Well life's never easy! Argh! And I do know it's hard, I'm not stupid and especially not naive about it. I'm living it all the time. Yet I guess I'm just a masochist to enjoy it. Because I create. I don't care if I don't have much money. I just want to create.
*sigh* Sorry about that sentimental crap. Ehheh, got a little out of hand...
Anyways, this year has taught me a lot in drawing/painting/creating a picture. It's been so great to do the very thing you love, for a whole year! As always, I've started to understand even better that I'm no painter. Nor an "artist". I think of myself as an illustrator. I've understood it now. I don't have those huge visions and opinions as great artist do. And the work is even tougher than an illustrator's. I've got great feedback of my drawing skills and everyone has encouraged me to master it even further. I've also started to fall in love with printing even more. (Lino, metal graphic printing and etc.) I'm even making my final assignment by printing. It's going to be great!
Ps. I'm also in love with Dragon Age origins
I'm soooo hooked it's almost embarrassing... (ALISTAIR
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I WISH YOU ALL A GREAT SPRING AND EVEN GREATER SUMMER!